I have endured
a lot of smear and hatred since Casey was killed and especially
since I became the so-called "Face" of the American anti-war movement.
Especially since I renounced any tie I have remaining with the
Democratic Party, I have been further trashed on such "liberal
blogs" as the Democratic Underground. Being called an "attention
whore" and being told "good riddance" are some of the more milder
I have come
to some heartbreaking conclusions this Memorial Day Morning. These
are not spur of the moment reflections, but things I have been
meditating on for about a year now. The conclusions that I have
slowly and very reluctantly come to are very heartbreaking to
conclusion is that I was the darling of the so-called left as
long as I limited my protests to George Bush and the Republican
Party. Of course, I was slandered and libeled by the right as
a "tool" of the Democratic Party. This label was to marginalize
me and my message. How could a woman have an original thought,
or be working outside of our "two-party" system?
when I started to hold the Democratic Party to the same standards
that I held the Republican Party, support for my cause started
to erode and the "left" started labeling me with the same slurs
that the right used. I guess no one paid attention to me when
I said that the issue of peace and people dying for no reason
is not a matter of "right or left", but "right and wrong."
I am deemed
a radical because I believe that partisan politics should be left
to the wayside when hundreds of thousands of people are dying
for a war based on lies that is supported by Democrats and Republican
guess no one paid attention
to me when I said that the
issue of peace and people dying
for no reason is not
a matter of "right or left",
but "right and wrong."
me that people who are sharp on the issues and can zero in like
a laser beam on lies, misrepresentations, and political expediency
when it comes to one party refuse to recognize it in their own
party. Blind party loyalty is dangerous whatever side it occurs
on. People of the world look on us Americans as jokes because
we allow our political leaders so much murderous latitude and
if we dont find alternatives to this corrupt "two" party
system our Representative Republic will die and be replaced with
what we are rapidly descending into with nary a check or balance:
a fascist corporate wasteland.
I am demonized because I dont see party affiliation or nationality
when I look at a person, I see that persons heart. If someone
looks, dresses, acts, talks and votes like a Republican, then
why do they deserve support just because he/she calls him/herself
I have also
reached the conclusion that if I am doing what I am doing because
I am an "attention whore" then I really need to be committed.
I have invested everything I have into trying to bring peace with
justice to a country that wants neither.
If an individual wants both, then normally he/she is not willing
to do more than walk in a protest march or sit behind his/her
computer criticizing others. I have spent every available cent
I got from the money a "grateful" country gave me when they killed
my son and every penny that I have received in speaking or book
fees since then. I have sacrificed a 29-year marriage and have
traveled for extended periods of time away from Caseys brother
and sisters and my health has suffered and my hospital bills from
last summer (when I almost died) are in collection because I have
used all my energy trying to stop this country from slaughtering
innocent human beings. I have been called every despicable name
that small minds can think of and have had my life threatened
party loyalty is dangerous
whatever side it occurs on.
People of the world look on us
Americans as jokes because
we allow our political leaders
so much murderous latitude
and if we dont find alternatives
to this corrupt "two" party system
our Representative Republic will die
and be replaced with what we are
rapidly descending into
with nary a check or balance:
a fascist corporate wasteland.
devastating conclusion that I reached this morning, however, was
that Casey did indeed die for nothing. His precious lifeblood
drained out in a country far away from his family who loves him,
killed by his own country which is beholden to and run by a war
machine that even controls what we think. I have tried every day
since he died to make his sacrifice meaningful. Casey died for
a country which cares more about who will be the next American
Idol than how many people will be killed in the next few months
while Democrats and Republicans play politics with human lives.
It is so painful to me to know that I bought into this system
for so many years and Casey paid the price for that allegiance.
I failed my boy and that hurts the most.
I have also
tried to work within a peace movement that often puts personal
egos above peace and human life. This group wont work with
that group; he wont attend an event if she is going to be
there; and why does Cindy Sheehan get all the attention anyway?
It is hard to work for peace when the very movement that is named
after it has so many divisions.
young men and women in Iraq have been abandoned there indefinitely
by their cowardly leaders who move them around like pawns on a
chessboard of destruction and the people of Iraq have been doomed
to death and fates worse than death by people worried more about
elections than people.
However, in five, ten, or fifteen years, our troops will come
limping home in another abject defeat and ten or twenty years
from then, our childrens children will be seeing their loved
ones die for no reason, because their grandparents also bought
into this corrupt system. George Bush will never be impeached
because if the Democrats dig too deeply, they may unearth a few
skeletons in their own graves and the system will perpetuate itself
is my resignation letter
as the "face" of the American
anti-war movement. This is not
my "Checkers" moment, because I will
never give up trying to help people
in the world who are harmed
by the empire of the good old US of A,
but I am finished working in,
or outside of this system.
This system forcefully resists being
helped and eats up the people
who try to help it. I am getting out
before it totally consumes me
or anymore people that I love
and the rest of my resources.
I am going
to take whatever I have left and go home. I am going to go home
and be a mother to my surviving children and try to regain some
of what I have lost. I will try to maintain and nurture some very
positive relationships that I have found in the journey that I
was forced into when Casey died and try to repair some of the
ones that have fallen apart since I began this single-minded crusade
to try and change a paradigm that is now, I am afraid, carved
in immovable, unbendable and rigidly mendacious marble.
has served its purpose. Its for sale. Anyone want to buy
five beautiful acres in Crawford , Texas? I will consider any
reasonable offer. I hear George Bush will be moving out soon,
too... which makes the property even more valuable.
This is my
resignation letter as the "face" of the American anti-war movement.
This is not my "Checkers" moment, because I will never give up
trying to help people in the world who are harmed by the empire
of the good old US of A, but I am finished working in, or outside
of this system. This system forcefully resists being helped and
eats up the people who try to help it. I am getting out before
it totally consumes me or anymore people that I love and the rest
of my resources.
America... you are not the country that I love and I finally realized
no matter how much I sacrifice, I cant make you be that
country unless you want it.
up to you now.
Note: Cindy Sheehan
is the mother of Spc. Casey Sheehan who was killed in Bush's war
of terror on 04/04/04.
Click here for other Cindy Sheehan articles:
White Hot Rage
From My Lai To Haditha
My First Time
Wake Up: Cindy Sheehan At The White House Gates
What Noble Cause?
Hypocrites And Liars, by Cindy Sheehan
Cindy Sheehan In Dallas
Casey's Story, by Cindy Sheehan